The Rides Of Life

got up abit late for work... missed the buses and cabs...
ahhh heck work.... sigh, everyday's a routine...

What a year.... full of grief, and trouble... and heartaches...
Sigh, when will i ever find peace within?
When will I ever find the comfort and solace i once knew?
Only God can provide the answers, only He knows...

Seek as i might, i'm still in a blurry...
I'm always finding... but i'm so lost now...
Life has no direction for me... it's been cruel...
If only I can switch places with Wan Ying...
I'd rather be in the state she is now...
At least i dun have to think... dun have to hurt...
Dun have to take all this depression and grief...

My heart is aching now, literally....
When will it ever stop....

Life is a cycle, everyday....
Till I find the answer.... This pain won't go away....

posted by de @ 4:41 PM 0 comments

Thank God for the wonderful weather.... glad it didnt' rain
Had a hot, great gig.... praise God.... glory to Him....

Heard that Wan Ying's chances of survival are 50/50...
Sigh, why must stuff like this happen...
I know things happen for a reason...
But sometimes, it's so hard to accept stuff like that
Imagine one day you're fine and kicking....
The next day you're lying on a bed in ICU...
Breathing with a machine and tubes stuck in you...

Tough ain't it? Well, life's a battle...
We all can't do without God...
We're just human... we don't control ourselves...

Why wait for tomorrow, when we have today...

posted by de @ 10:18 AM 0 comments

Sonic Festival up in afew hrs time.... Gonna be wicked....
But Wan Ying's in a coma... nobody told me on christmas itself
Lord, please lay Your healing hands on her.....
I know things are done for a reason....
So Lord, we leave everything in Your hands....

Thank You......

posted by de @ 9:35 AM 0 comments

Boxing day.... Work as usual.... sian....

Went to tim's place to jam. learnt some scratching, pretty wicked actually

aaaaa... aarr...aarrrr.... arrrrrr........ ah yeah!!!!

that's all. Simple and boring life of mine.

good day....

posted by de @ 9:00 AM 0 comments

The eve of Christmas.... That's where there's busy shopping centres, jammed roads, bright lights....
Further into the night, i'll see happy faces, laughters and joy, drunks...... etc

Admist this joyous occasion, it's raining in my heart....

The happiness of being with my love ones, have been over-runned by the feeling of being lonely....
For 3 years have i spent Christmas with her, now it's time to do it alone....
I'll cherish the memories... oh Santa, won't you bring her back on your sleigh?

Merry Christmas everyone....
And have a great New Year....

posted by de @ 1:37 AM 0 comments

Lord of the Ring rock baby!!! Much better then the first, to my opinion.
Had dinner with Tim. He's still abit depressed about failing his TP.
But he's much better now.... He decided to spin with me at the sonic fest...
it'll be wicked.... and chris is mc-ing. haha! something to watch out for...
DJ WEI, DJ DETONE and MC DEF coming your way baby!!!! Selecta!!!

Spectrum is spinning @ The Black Room for chrismas eve... Woohoo!
Might be spinning in Jan....

posted by de @ 9:16 AM 0 comments

Ahhh..... Spent almost the whole day at Bethesda Chapel Church. The event was a good one.
But felt abit awkward cuz we dont' actually play the churchy type of music....
We play loud, hard stuff..... and the people there were either too old, or too young.
Think there was abit of a culture shock when we got up on stage....
But nevertheless, we had a good time. got to know more people....

Next up, Sonic festival @ St Andrew's Cathedral..... 28 dec baby!!!
really looking forward to it....

Tired......

posted by de @ 10:53 AM 0 comments

Had a wicked night. Performed at The 3rd Place with Parousia. Actually we opened for them.
Was croaking like a toad up on stage... my throat wasn't feeling that great....
Did an acoustic set. 3 covers, 2 originals. Nice place for a gig....
Nice place to chill too! Got a pool table and also a foosball 'satay' table.

The 3rd Place is a cafe by weekdays and a church by weekends. Cool concept...
The Pastor, Alvin, came up and talked to us. Really nice guy.....
Invited us to play anytime we wanted to, well sort of....
He wants to see our actual band gigging, full band....
Praise God for opportunities being offer to us....

Well in case up to now you're still wondering what i'm talking about,
I'm in a band named Crown of Thorns. We mostly play Modern Rock stuff....

We're gonna have another gig later on at the Bethesda Chapel Church, near Kembangan MRT
Hope my throat dun turn up dry again....

eyelids growing heavy..... gotta get some rest....

"It's hard to give up the one you never thought you'd leave...." - The Juliana Theory

posted by de @ 12:24 PM 0 comments

Nothing productive today man....
Just slept all the way till 4pm....
Then practised for the up-coming gig at andy's place....
Crown of Thorns is gonna have an acoustic gig on friday @ The 3rd Place....
And on Saturday, we're performing at Bethesda Chapel Church......
Hope everything turns out fine......


Mind's blank.........................................

posted by de @ 8:05 AM 0 comments

2.30am wednesday morning.... Had a hard time trying to sleep.
Just when i thought i entered dreamland, I was wokened by my HP.
It was Renee!!!!! I thought i was dreaming... but it was real.
She sounded like an angel even though i was half-dazed.
Wished me Happy Birthday and apologised for the late greeting.
My heart melted when i heard her voice...
Instantly, the dark clouds faded away and the sun was shining brightly.
After we hung up, i couldn't get back to sleep.
Think it must be the leftover adrenaline...
Went online and chatted with her all the way till 1pm

It was a beautiful day from that point of time onwards....

Had dinner with my close pals. It was great.
Apperently, Jerome happen to know Boon cuz they were in the same secondary school
Singapore is really getting smaller and smaller...
Shot some pool later on....
Thank you guys and gals for making it a good day. Appreciated it....
Really enjoyed it alot. Hope you did too..... oh, and thanks for the presents too!

God bless you all......

posted by de @ 11:13 AM 0 comments

It's 3.50am in the morning now... It's another birthday... 22... and counting...
it'll just go on and on...
At the stroke of midnight, i was pounded by sms-es and phone calls from friends, mostly close ones.
With greetings of 'happy birthday' and 'one year older...'
A smile came to my face. I felt glad and happy... a warmth surrounds me...
But it was soon taken away by a thought.... "why didn't she call?"
I was disappointed.... thought she will be the first to call....
Time difference i guess.... she must be busy with something....
i made excuses to myself....
Till now, no phone call, no icq msg, no sms, no nothing....

Hurt caves in....
Heart aches now....
Keep staring aimlessly at the screen....

Happy Sad Birthday, Isaac
Welcome to being a year older
Have a great year....

posted by de @ 12:01 PM 0 comments

i wait online for you everyday, seems like it's fading away......
why do i hope for what's not to happen
Stupid child, your heart and mind is sadden

just keep the hurt to yourself for it's affecting others......
sleep on it, sleep on it..... only God knows your hurt.....
Tomorrow, it'll be a new day
To find yourself in a ditch, the same old, same old way......

posted by de @ 11:46 AM 0 comments